My body and mind keeps telling me to care for someone and tend their every need but there’s no one.
for once in a long time, i don’t want to fuck this up at all.
How does it feel that you destroyed the love we had?
To ignore someone who admires you and constantly seeks your presence
To not even acknowledge such effort
To be the victim of an invisible crime
How does it feel to break the the most forbidden rule on someone you’ll forget in 10 years?
To be wanted and yet remain alone
To always get what you want
To break promise after promise
How does it feel to dominate?
To rule your every outcome
To create false conspiracies against your kingdom
To own all the land and have no one to share it with
How does it feel when I come to you at my most vulnerable time; because not even myself can heal me?
When everyone is against you and I’m your only soldier?
How does it feel that I no longer will fight for you, because you never fought for me. No more words can mend. No more promises can fix. Act upon your damage to make amends, but too much of a coward you are.
You are a queen. Queen’s aren’t cowards.
This type of frustration will probably be the death of me. Coursing through my body with no solution. Help.
[aggressively thinks about having sex with you while keeping a straight face]
I just want an apartment,
and someone to fill it with me.